Monday, March 30, 2009

This Christian thing...

So I think I am realizing more and more what this whole "Christian thing" is all about. I think I grew up believing that a Christian is perfect... always does the right thing... always says the right thing... never upsets anyone... Maybe that is the vice of growing up in the church.

Perhaps that is the cause of so many rebellious teenagers in the church... believing that they are to be "perfect" and because they are incapable of being so, they rebel.

In my Bible Study tonight, I really felt slapped with the realization that being God's child really does not mean that you are always doing the right thing. Honestly... most of the people in the Bible were REALLY screwed up! We are doing a study on David... and he was sure not perfect... aldulterer, murderer... he had several wives and concubines... he got angry at God... and yet he was called "a man after God's own heart" by GOD!!! hmm. Paul... one of the most incredible apostles, was a man that murdered Christians.

I'm guessing that if those men could not walk in the right path all the time, then I probably will fail also... and yet God's Grace is PREVIOUS... He already knows when, how and why I will sin... and yet He has ALREADY given me grace for those moments. WOW. It is kind of mind blowing. If I were God, I think I would not be so gracious.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Terrible Blogger

So I am a terrible blogger... but since I do not have internet access at home and am only near internet availability a few times a week, I do not feel that bad. *smile*

Nine months left... Andy will graduate with his Bachelor's Degree in 9 months. Wow. We moved to Cookeville almost three years ago so that he could go to college.

Interesting bit of trivia... I've had FIVE jobs in the three years that we have lived out here. Ha. That is pathetic.

Now it is time to start deciding what is next... where we will live... what job Andy will have... what I will do... when children will come into the picture. Seems a bit overwhelming at times... and kind of exciting.

One thing is for certain... it is not a good time to be poor. Heehee. Moving and changing things takes money. But if God owns the "cattle on a thousand hills" then I think He could sell a few to help us do whatever he has planned for us next. *giggle*

If anyone reading this knows me AT ALL... or has spoken to me for five minutes or more... you know I REALLY want children. But as the reality of motherhood is approaching, I must admit I am nervous. Having a child is not just having baby showers, giving birth and bringing home a little bundle of joy. It is a responsibility to raise a child in God's word, to discipline as God would have you to and to care for this child 24/7 for the next 18 years... wow. Only with God's help can I do this crazy calling. I know that I will be a mom one day... sooner now rather than later... what an amazing and scary adventure!

I hope the pugs have prepared me for motherhood... ha.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Non-traditional college life

Okay... it's been a while since I took the time to write... guess I've been busy, overwhelmed, overworked and the like... *smile* But there is a light at the end of the tunnel!!! Only 9 months and Andy will graduate with his bachelors and we can move on with our life... YAY!

But I must say this... I thank God that He brought us out here. We have been poor, but always had enough. We have struggled, but never lost hope. We have cried but been able to laugh. God has truly worked on us and through us while we've lived the "non-traditional college life". We are not sure what is next right now, though we are praying about it. We see some amazing changes on the horizon and they are finally close enough to see.

I still chase toddlers daily. Have some pretty concrete views on child-rearing at this point. *smile* At least I have a list of what NOT to do... ha.

And I thank God for Andy. He is a wonderful husband. He has truly suffered and struggled to make our life better and I do not think he realizes how proud I am of him.

Hmm... and our pugs... truly the highlight of our lives. *smile* My new favorite thing - napping with Daisy... she is our cuddlepug.

Anyways... that's all for now.