Sunday, October 25, 2009

October so far... answered prayers

Well, my Quigley pug got sick. VERY sick. Did not eat or drink for over 24 hours (if anyone knows pugs, this is UNHEARD of in pug world). Lost 1 1/2 lbs in 48 hours. The vet was less than optimistic. The vet tech even less bright... talking about "discussing your options" with the vet. Nuhuh. I looked at her through tears and said "I've already lost a baby. I'm not losing my dog." They gave him a shot to keep him from vomiting anymore (guess it took a while to kick in since he puked again as soon as I got him into the car) and we just prayed that he would snap out of it. God hears prayers of despiration... and He knew I needed my Quigley. Within a few hours, he started to drink some water. The next morning, he was hungry again. We were so glad... I think I would have cooked him a feast if I could have.

So insurance companies are not my friend. Andy and I do not have pregnancy coverage in our health insurance. When we found out I was expecting, we applied for it. I ended up having to rush to the doctor due to the miscarriage the same day that I sent in my application (via internet... they should have those things immediately, right?)... Well, they approved us for insurance but they approved it on the day THEY received my application, not the day I applied... long story short, we ended up with $1135 that we owed. Sorry, but I do not think I have that much in my piggy bank. I prayed for God's favor, called the insurance company, and guess what?!?!? They retroacted my insurance to pay for that bill! YAY!

Andy and I have alot of changes coming up rather quickly in our life. Sometimes it is hard to trust God with the big things... and even with the little things. But I guess I just need to remind myself of all the blessings He has bestowed on us lately.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

A good cry = healing

My mom told me about a song... said I had to get the cd. So I go on youtube and check out a video... this WILL make you cry so beware.

The story is that this couple (who are part of the Christian group Selah) were expecting their fourth daughter. In the middle of the pregnancy, they were told that their unborn baby had several serious conditions that were incompatible with life. Her lungs were not developing, her kidneys couldn’t function and there was an absence of amniotic fluid around her. Todd and Angie made the decision to carry baby Audrey to term, until it was time to say goodbye. “We decided that she would stay with us until the Lord takes her.” Their doctor told them that she would not likely live through the birthing process.

Their baby Audrey Caroline lived for 2 1/2 hours. The song and youtube video is a tribute to her. Sadly, only 7 weeks later, Audrey Caroline's baby cousin Gregory Luke died of SIDS at just 10 weeks old... Such tragedy in such a short time and yet their faith is still strong. Baby Audrey's mommy has a beautiful blog that will encourage you... http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/... it has certainly encouraged me. And sometimes tears are healing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2CnUtVY35o&feature=related

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Thank God September is over

I am so grateful that it is October. September was the toughest, most difficult month of my entire life. Today is four weeks since I lost my little one... still miss my little bean.

Still sad. Still looking towards the future. Still hopeful. Still trusting God.

Been trying to "get healthy". Done at least a mile each day this week and a few last week. Eating better and more healthy... I guess it's just my way of preparing...